While watching TV tonight, I saw an ad for Mercy and it made me think. This weeks episode will feature a patient who fell asleep one night and woke up ten years later. A character on the show asked another "If you fell asleep and woke up ten years later, what do you think you would remember? Would you remember me?"
It is interesting how many things can change in ten years. Looking back on fifteen, I keep thinking how simple life was, yet complicated at the same time. At that age I was looking forward to getting my first boyfriend, going to Disney and to that year's Junior Prom. I was worried about the next test that I would take, what problems were happening between friends, and medical worries for Dad and Grandpa. I had to start thinking about where I wanted to go to school and what I could offer to a larger community. How could I look more interesting to the people at the Admissions Office at the University so they would accept me into their school.
Ten years later I'm still looking for a guy in my life so I can have some of the same happiness that my friends have already experienced. I've been to Disney twice since turning 15 but I want to travel to more mature destinations. Proms have passed and made way to a few weddings and nights out with friends. Test worries have made way for work troubles, friends still have issues but not so petty as before.
What has stayed the same is the notion of what I have to offer in life. I am back at the crossroads of what I need to say and do to get back into school to do my masters program. I have to look again at what I have accomplished and how to make sure I can offer my best self to my education. I have become a teacher "lite" at Hebrew School and have learned a little about classroom management, preparation, and teacher/student relationships. I am in charge of a wonderful program to donate food to local shelters, teaching the students how to be responsible to their community and how to make a change in the world. I want to show that I am interested in Education and how I feels that I can make an impact on student lives to help shape their futures as my teachers had in the past. I just need to get over the nerves and apply to school so I can start my education again.
So what is in store for the next ten years? Will I still be close with the same friends that I have depended on the last few years? Will my high school friends still be a large part of my life or will new co-workers take their place? Will I be married with kids and a few dogs? Will I be happy with who I am and what I have accomplished in the last ten years? I hope so. The only person who can make the change in my life is me. The only way I can make a change is if I keep motivated to put out my best possible self.
One thing that I know for sure is that I will still be thinking about the past, the future, and how often I write just a little too much information off of one quick thought.